Stirred, not shaken

A friend of mine recently told me that she thought that God "constantly stirs my heart" and that really meant a lot to me. But when I got that message, I began to wonder what that really meant. What occurs in me when God "stirs my heart". For some reason, I thought of the pool of Bethesda from the time of Jesus. The story where Jesus heals the paralytic by the pool. Back to my thinking though, I thought on what the pool was and the idea of its healing powers that it was thought to have had. It was said that God stirred the pool and the first to get in the pool as it was stirred, would receive healing. That's it... I think that for God to stir my heart is to bring healing on my soul. And yes, when I think about it, that is what he does. He gives me a peace of mind and heart that relaxes me. He takes me away from the troubles of my world and draws me into him. God is so awesome in that he can simply let me draw my mind away from what is not of him and let me focus on him. I wish that I could always be in this state, but for me it takes time to really open up to God and allow him to do that. I worry, as I started back to school today, that I will be able to find time in this hectic last year of high school that God will not only speak to me and give me peace, but that he will use me. He will use me as a tool to show others the way God can stir the heart and give you peace.

One thing about this peace that is amazing to me is the amount of joy that comes with it. It is almost paradoxical to say that I am at peace yet am bursting with joy, but that is exactly what I feel. I pray that I can continue to be in this state, a state of oneness with God and that I allow him to speak to me this year and give me vision into what he wants out of me.

God is awesome. Hopefully, I can know this every second of my life. I tend to forget, but how? He gave so much for us and I pray that as I continue to mature in my relationship with him, I will find out what it is that he wants of me.

PS - I am getting better in regards to my writing/typing skills, cause spell check says I had no errors. :-)