Google and Arrows

Lately, I have felt like I am on some sort of an adventure, searching for something. I don't know what that something is, but I know that I need to find it. Now, I know this is spiritual, but in what aspect. Something about God that I am looking for. Not so much a needle in a haystack, but a definitely not a toddler Easter egg hunt. Something of God's nature is calling out to me and I cant figure it out. Ill be honest, this entry is mainly for me as I type right now, but maybe my thoughts will unfold into something useful to you. Back to my point, in the world today if I were looking for something than I would probably be told to 'google it'. It is so easy to find easy things in this society, but what about the hard things. I'll have to search within me. This, my friends, is not something to be found on the internet. It would be easy if I could type in God and Brett in the little white bar and find what I need from the blue text it would give me. That won't happen. I am looking for something deep, something ill find on my own. I am not saying that im completely self-dependent and can figure it out all on my own, but this one is calling me and me alone. God wants me to come after him, a chase I suppose. But what is at the end? Not so much a chase to catch God, because we can never just catch God and understand all things. I chase to where he will lead me, is what this is. Hopefully, I can find what God intends for me at this point in my life. Right now, I have things on my heart that need to be settled, things in my life that need to be tamed, issues that hold me back from the adventure God has planned for me. In speculation, maybe this adventure is the rest of my life. I have built a foundation with God, a genuine relationship and now he challenges me to face the arrows of life as they come, but as the Bible says in Hebrews 12: "...throw off everything that hinders us and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." Maybe that verse is the verse that speaks to me at this point in my life. As I write this, I am questioning myself...I think things are kind of unfolding here in this room full of bouncy balls that I call my brain. Now that I have committed, I may start to face trials due to my commitment and God is challenging me to keep up...just keep up.