Fork in the Road

So this is my first attempt at writing, then again its not really for you. It's for me, but you have the luxury, maybe, to read it. I guess the first thing I should say is in regards to the name of the blog here. Lights...Camera...Live. Now this is live as in living, not live as in SNL. I feel a lot that the world is a stage and we are just puppets. But, we have the chance to break free. I believe there comes a time in everyones life when you hit the 'fork in the road'. For me, I have been stuck at it, off and on, for a while. Regarding college choice..my life seemed for the longest time to be heading in a straight shot for one place, but late last night I found myself. I have developed a longing to get away, to leave. I want to go somewhere new, meet new people, become a new person. Its so easy to go where you are 'supposed' to go, cause you know people and you get dropped right in. I dont want that. I want a chance to be my own person, I always have been and to get away is key.

I went on a Wilderness Trek recently with my church and on the glorious Mt. Antero in Colorado, I think I found myself. I have been wrapped up in the author Donald Miller lately. His books really make me think about life, God, and everything that goes with it. I never read much, but lately I cant put books down. They are opening my eyes and I think God is using them to talk to me. To open my eyes about my life and where I am going, what I am doing. Hopefully, it will all be revealed to me what to do. But, this week in the mountains was a kick start to my matured faith, I think. So many times I will come home from a retreat or a camp and feel so charged and on fire for God, but soon after getting home I fall right back into my old life. Not this time, I vowed before I set foot on that mountain, even aloud to my group, that this was going to impact me. I knew God was going to use that week and he did, no doubt in my mind. It didnt charge me and fire me up, it set me on fire. I know this is a lot of rambling and all over the place, off the walls kind of writing but I my heart and mind are all over the place as I write this. I will attempt to tune my writing skills for the enjoyment of the reader, but for now...enjoy this. Its what is happening with me today. Ill try to share more thoughts about things in general, but I felt I needed to write this somewhere. In conclusion, I feel close to God yet still am lost. I believe patience is the key and God will reveal what he has planned...but ill try to keep writing.